©12-15-09 by Donna Cunningham, MSW
There’s a level of pure rage loose in the world that’s hellish to be around. It’s not just road rage, it’s mall rage, bar brawl rage, and hate crime rage.
It’s not just Out There, it’s In Here as well, inside me and every third person I talk to. It’s more intense now with Mars going retrograde, but it’s been building for a while already.
It’s been a rough ride lately, reining in my own rage. Some days the best I can do with it, despite all those years of healing work, is just to take the phone off the hook and discipline myself not to take it out on anyone else. And pray to have it lifted. Because the plain truth is, it’s not ABOUT anyone or anything, it just IS, and it would be totally unfair to take it out on anyone else.
If you’re feeling some of that same heat boiling up inside, don’t blame Mars for it. The planets don’t CAUSE our woes, they just reflect the activation of certain instincts our species is hard-wired with.
Don’t even blame the fact that Mars, Pluto, and Saturn are all in hard aspect to one another right now. Had you noticed that? I did just this morning when I was cozied up with my ephemeris, trying to figure out when it would go away. See, Pluto and Saturn are still square one another in early degrees of Capricorn and Libra. At 19° of a fixed sign, Mars is semisquare Saturn and sesquiquadrate Pluto—a tight little triangle of hard aspects. (A semisquare—45,° give or take 3°—is half a square. A sesquiquadrate—35°—is a square and a half, so these aspects partake of the qualities of a square.)
Later I’m going to tell you what that almost unnoticed triangle confirmed for me—something I’d finally gotten to anyway in my earnest work these past several days to work through the feelings. It’s something that may just apply to you as well if you’re struggling too, something that might just be underlying this red hot lava eruption of emotion.
But for now, let’s stick with the rage. It won’t go away just because these aspects are over. I’m getting a refresher course of things about it I’ve had to learn and relearn over the years.
Rage is a primal wave of energy and emotion.
Rage is contagious.
Rage seeks a target. Any target. Whoever’s there.
Annoyances and misdeeds in the present are not what you’re furious about.
You’re not mad at who you think you are.
You’re not upset about what you think you are.
Anger is a defense against other emotions.
It’s very old. There are layers and layers of feelings below it.
You felt it as an infant, maybe even at birth.
If you sit with it and resist the temptation to aim it, it will change.
What emerges may surprise you.
Okay, so what was it that Pluto and Saturn whispered in my ear this morning when I looked in the ephemeris?
I’d already gotten there several of the times I sat in my meditation spot and processed those lava eruptions. Per instructions, I kept asking myself,
“But what are you really angry about?”
“Yes, but what are you really upset about?”
“What’s really bothering you?”
“What’s under there?”
And finally, I’d get hit with a wave of deep wrenching grief. It’s even harder to sit with than anger. It’s grief over a lot of separate losses, all of the people who made me feel safe and loved who aren’t on this plane any more.
Most of all, there’s a terrible, ongoing grief about how unsafe our world is now, about all the suffering that’s going on. So many people have lost so much–homes foreclosed, jobs disappeared, dreams of a good education for their children shattered. And they’re not even given a decent space to grieve those losses because they have to tough it out now just to survive. That’s Pluto and Saturn in combination at its all-time worst.
It seems like I cry every single day when I watch the news. I know better than to watch it a lot, but that doesn’t keep me from knowing it’s there, from feeling it in the air when I go out in the world.
And that’s what the Pluto-Saturn-Mars triangle is about—old grief that’s being triggered, then shunted into a boiling hot rage. I didn’t see before how it was all connected, just thought it was two separate and unrelated sets of energies to contend with. I still learn so much about astrology and about myself from living through transits like these.
Is it just me, or are some of you out there maybe going through this as well? Tell us about it in the comment section.
Two related articles on this general climate of rage are Pluto, Saturn and the Blame Game—the Brat Backlash Has Begun! and Pluto meets Saturn on the Square—Fear and Loathing in America.
UPDATE: Apparently a lot of you are struggling with the same combination of rage and grief. See the lively discussion in the comments below. I’ve taken some of the most moving and insightful comments and published them here: Readers’ Replies to Mars Alert—Code Red.
Other Related posts on this blog:
- Mars Mission 1: Mars and Conflict—Road Block or Productive Detour?
- Mars Mission 2: Anger—the Guard Dog of Denial
- The Astrology of Self-Justification
- In a Crisis? Rescue Remedy Can Help You through It
- Purge Yourself of Pluto’s Negativity—Get Free of Bitterness
- How the Pluto-Saturn Square may Affect People born with that Aspect
- Stuck For What Seems Like Forever? Maybe Areas of Unforgiveness are the Cause
- Internet Find of the Week: New Resources for Healing Grief and Loss
- More Insights into Healing Grief and Loss
- Hope for Those in the Dark Night of the Soul
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